We're always just about to leave

As with a lot of things I've been working with, this entry is long overdue. It's almost as if I've been doing IDWTMYA a disservice by leaving it idle for increasingly prolonged periods of time. Precisely what I need when I'm trying to keep my priorities in check, don't you think? This isn't what this is for. This isn't what I made this for. More importantly, this isn't what I spent all of that time thinking of things to write about for. Being a creature of habit (many habits, rather) I was always one to draw parallels. Part of the rationale behind I Don't Want To Miss You Anymore was the thought that this exercise in focus would help me direct my attention towards more constructive ends. Since it has to be said, I'll go straight up and say I feel like I'm betraying myself for turning this into something I just do on the side when in all intent this was meant to be something I was to do every other day at the very least.

I won't make promises I can't keep but I can say I'll try to get this back on track. As with everything else, life, love, academics (synonymous to life and love) et al.

Must I go on about what's been happening over the course of the past few days? Maybe I should, just to keep the momentum up.

Over the weekend, I was in Manila for this family reunion thing. Seeing as how my folks were always particular of how other family members saw me being the eldest among the cousins and some sort of de facto rolemodel, I had to look as "presentable" as I possibly could for the duration of my stay. So what does this entail? Dressing up? Check. I'm not exactly a style icon in any way, shape or form but I'd like to believe I know how to pull a look together so that wasn't that much of a problem. Had to get a haircut and a mild shave though. I expected another one of those haircuts you only regret having when you're running late and almost halfway to the airport but hey, turns out the guy actually knew what he was doing. I salute you, Boss barbershop guy!

Since I got through the dressing part and had a few hours to kill before going home, I made true on those plans Nads and I had of going to Saguijo for Terno Inferno. Saw some pretty good bands, didn't stay long enough for Up Dharma Down and Encounters With A Yeti though. I feel bad for greeting Ponchie on the way in without even seeing his band play. Oh well, next time I'ma make it up to the guy. I really respect his band and it's the least I could do as a fan. Apart from spending time with the Paps (Nads and Xiomara, for the uninformed), I got to meet their friend Clarisse, Nads' sister Judy, Camille and that other person they were with who looks nice but I'm sort of apprehensive to talk to. ANGEL MADE IT, by the way! She got there with the Kat and their friend, Van. As with Encounters With A Yeti, I'd have to make it up to them as well for having them leave the Tumblr people (Shinji, Francis Cabal et al) at Freedom bar just so I could spend like 15-20 minutes tops with them. Nads, Xioms, I miss you guys. Please come visit soon! Angle, the Kat, I'll see you in Manila. Everyone else, I'll see you soon.

The morning after, the family went to Tagaytay. Nothing much, just a good family meal. Got to the airport around a bit past 3pm and got back home sometime around 5:45pm.

After Celebrating my Dad's birthday on the 22nd, everything just rolled back into the monotony of everyday life. Went to class, went through some power outages, talked to some people and went home straight after.

I guess that would be it for now, not much else happened. Or wait, what about that ghost thing? Well, I guess we have to wait for another entry to find out. See you everyone.

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"I won't sit still for another moment with you", I said; sleeping in other lovers' beds, living by every second we spent between the sweetest fall and the coldest winter.

With spring coiled gently in the bases of our shadows, we had but half a season to share. Staring blankly as you took my hand, you moved with the grace of time; time as only time could portray, time as she faded away. Summer looming behind the silhouettes we've drawn for ourselves, we burned too bright to stay together; you as the year and I, the season.

Of all the words to say in parting, it was "don't you fade away."

Love, love will tear us apart again

It's been long enough and after that unbearable little hiatus, what better opportunity to get IDWTMYA back on track than by posting a Valentine's day entry? Not much has happened since I stopped writing a while back so this is fairly recent.

First off, I've ALWAYS hated Valentine's day. Yes, I am being bitter about it. Seeing as I've never ever been on a V-day date (even when I WAS in a relationship), you could see why I'm quick to dismiss this whole holiday as a farce conceived with intent to disrupt the balance of nature, at least my balance of nature; my sense of balance as to how to position myself against the disproportionate number of people coming out of the blue to remind me of how frustrating my romantic life has been. Okay, I'm getting delusional here. It's overrated to say it's overrated but yeah, it's overrated. Either that or I just didn't see much of a point in celebrating this to begin with.

I ended up going to this party down at Cups and Lowercase called "Love Stinks, Let's Drink" with some friends of mine. The beer was drink all you can and yeah, I should've gotten more to make sure I was perfectly sloshed the day after but I could say I had a fair amount. Dropped by Metro for the first time ever after we realized not much was going on at Cups.

Things were pretty stale but hey, beats staying at home thinking about why I'm not in love for Valentine's day. Maria- 1, Lord Gloom- 0.

Oh, and I absolutely love how I pulled off that post-punk look last Saturday. If that's any consolation, I guess I'm a bit happier trying to impress myself somehow. Make me feel a lot better about myself when I see it work. Thanks to everyone who spent time with me. PJ, Arisa, Jariya, Jariya's friend, Buddy, Steff and new friends Richard and John. Hope to see you guys again sometime.